How far is too far…
As I have spoken about last time, I am suffering though limitations in regard to my physical movements. Or to put it bluntly, I can only move in 5 minute increments. This has been especially frustrating as my mind has become somewhat clearer as the chemo brain fog has been lifting (I account some of this due to the fact that my body always gets back into a type of school mode around August).
Back to my ability to move, have you ever taken into account how far a 5 minute walk is? I feel as though I am my daughter Zia learning how to walk. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not stumbling but everything seems so far away when normally so close. I will start off strong and then….well, my bones start to ache like I’m one of those tractor pulls I used to see at county fairs. Usually I will then need to sit or at least lean against something. Simple tasks like getting showered in the morning which used to take me 15-20 minutes now stretch into 40. Still (again) my mind says “Go” and curses once again.
I know things will improve but I get nervous if I had to be this way in front of others on a long term basis. There is no way I could deal with this doing what I love nor around the people I love. Still again, things will improve (right?)
Take care, be well, and Excelsior!
Kevin
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